Life through rose tinted squeeky clear glasses and still seeing things rosy

So in fact, the sea is anything but sweet and sugary, it's actually salty like tears...like million billion salty teardrops. Not that I didn't know this tiny little fact...I did but I thought "wouldn't it be nicer if it was sweet?" People do this all the time..we know the cold hard facts, but we choose to gloss them over and focus instead on what we would like to be.

Now while this may be considered a rather "head in the clouds" thing to do, it's still optimistic. Excess optimism may lead to dissapointment and too little would just make our lives a depressing misery. So a healthy dose is needed( I don't know who does the measuring but ah well) This somehow still boils down to vision. Optimists SEE what they want to happen and obviously seeing it is the first step in making it happen. And then activists MAKE what they want happen.

But first things first,the seeing part. To some people choosing to believe that there is some sweetness in the salty sea is stupid. But I think optimism is pretty much hope..and faith. Hope and faith require strength. It took strength for Abraham to have faith and trust God when He promised him a son. It took strength for him to continue hoping for this..and the effect of a short time of weakness is evidenced in the birth of Ishmael. I'mnot trying to encourage delusions here but what I'm saying basically is that it takes strength to see things in life clearly for what they are, the bitter, the rough, the sad, the enraging, the humiliating and at the same time still be able to focus on the good and positive side of things. To have been beaten rough black and blue and still have hope that tommorow will be better.

It may be delusional but I think when the reflection of the sun hits the sea, they do look like shiny crystals gleaming happily. And to me there is something sweet about that...

Never stop dreaming,never stop believing and never stop hoping.These are the things that make life worth living. ( sounds like its straight outta high school musical or somethng. #cheesybuttrue(I hate when people twitterize things unneccesarily but this time I'm guilty! sarry!)

Genesis 13- Vision II

So this is not a composed post..jus wanna spill before it flies away from my head. So, I redesigned my blog for like the third time and I edited the header to add "As far as you eyes can see". I wasn't even thinking to be honest, I just wrote it cuz I felt it described the way I saw the title Suagary sea. Apart from the fact that it rhymes with the blog title :), it kept ringing in my head and I thought it sounded familiar in a biblical context.

So googled it up and it was Genesis 13v 14 (NLT) "After Lot had gone, the LORD said to Abram, "Look as far as you can see in every direction--north and south, east and west. I am giving all this land, as far as you can see, to you and your seed as a permanent possession. 16 And I will give you so many descendants that, like the dust of the earth, they cannot be counted! 17 Go and walk through the land in every direction, for I am giving it to you.”

Made soo much sense..I could hear a million little switches clicking in place. First off, in certain areas of my life, I've kinda had to seperate myself from some..shld I say Lots and it was mostly because I needed to do what I felt like God was saying. And soon after, I get this passage and I feel like God's making me a promise. I still don't really understand but the way it just ties in with the blog and my life at the same time's too significant to ignore.

Next thing is in line with the vision like I said a few posts back. He's only going to give you as far as your eyes see. Some people's views are obstructed. I don't want any obstruction, my eyes gast see far even if I have to squint. And I think its basically about how big I can dream..like if you only dare to imagine it, He would do it. Hmm..I'm getting excited. I know this is a very me post. But somehow, I just felt like I could share and challenge whoever's reading not to limit your vision.

There's many layers to this and I feel like I'm only wildly, in a very scattered way, scraping the top. Task for another day..right now, I need to sleep! *eyes shut*

Vision=Value

So I don't really know why I started this blog. My old one was more personal and encapsulated by growth as an individual..all the squirmy beginnings are documented there and I think thats where they belong, in the past, Thank God! So This blog is supposd to document the latter part of my growth stage cuz we never stop growing do we? Well, some people do but thats a whole different story.

Nyhoos, the idea was to be less personal and focus on something solid..that something solid still eludes me. There are however some constants..God being number one, and number two,the people that hopefully read this...you guys need something added to you..entertainment, humour,gist,inspiration..something like that that adds value. But these things that supposedly add value are based on the vision I have for the blog..not? So vision leads to value..and I think this relates to everything,personally, work-wise,relationship wise. If you personally have a vision for your life, then you can add value to the people around you and you yourself can gain value from it...

However, till you have a fully formed vision, its the things you associate with, the things you see, the name you create for yourself ( all these things become whether or not we are actively involved in its formation)..these are things that determine our (value) net-worth....so
just a little food for thought. Eat and be full! hehe.

xo

Loving is the state of mind

Thought I lost u there but alas no! Phew! Nyhoos back to by bloggy boo..hehe. Been a long while but I'm back.

Been asking God for a while to help me make a decision with regards to this summer. I really didn't want to make the decision based on my own wants like I really wanted God to guide me especially because many times before I always did exactly what I wanted without considering God's input. Nyhoos, while I was stressing about not wanting to make the wrong choice I prayed a little earnest prayer and just like a little whiff of something, I caught it! He basically said "I'll be with you wherever you go". Just that n it totally made my day!! Like I cannot begin to even explain...Like when I was finally willing to let Him choose and wait on Him for the answer..and He lets me do whatever I want. I love Him soo much!! Like ah just bliss! ( You can't understand till you experience it trust me) And because of it, its like I have love spewing out of every exit in my body..lol. I hope this high lasts

Nyhoos, pressing issues at hand are EXAMS!!! Eurgh..terrible I tell you, but it's gotta be done. God see me through

Fairytale schmoozytale

Why do we just have to have the most unrealistic ideals about romance growing up and when you're all grown up, you come crashing down hard into the real world? Sex and the city already helped in figuring one of the roots of our freaking ideals and they are the lovely fairytales championed by disney ofcourse (for girls at least). The girl with the wicked stepmother and mean step sisters who is treated like a slave, or the girl locked away in a castle with no escape..whatever the sad story, rest assured prince charming would come to your rescue. Little girls parade up and down in their tiaras and cute litle princess costumes and you think "Aw how cute"...but really what's Cinderella without her prince? I grew up believing that finding a husband and getting married was the be all and end all of my life.

Like it wasn't enough that I'ld already been conditioned to stick it out in whatever sorry situation I found myself and wait for Prince Charming, I had to go and compound the issues by geeting hooked on Mills and Boom novels in sec. school, thanks to my lovely seat mate. And I know I'm not the only one who went through this phase. Now my ideals were higher and not just any prince charming would do. He had to be have a body carved like Ardonis and he had to be stupidly rich or have some royal blood or at least have a relative ready to bequeath him with a handsome inheritance. When we touched, there had to be electric sparks and there definitely had to be chemistry between us and he had to do all he could to get me no matter how hard-to-get I played.....

Now do you see the dilemna that this has created..Stupid Disney and M&B.Kmt! If only I had known the consequence of indulging in such sweet nothings. The only positive thing I am willing to hang on to is happily ever afters. I mean a girl still has to dream right..even though its definition has been constantly redefined over the years, to account for the odd hiccups and drama. The rest have to go and I soo have to cleanse my mind from years of brain washing. I mean there are the one or two people who look like they have fairytale lives..but really, they only LOOK like that.

And its not just girls. Guys have their issues with sex and pornography..which is a whole different set of issues I am unqualified to discuss. However company magazine were gracious enough to give me a few insights into some of the ideals guys have...No, we don't look sexy first thing in the morning. I know you think its bad, but its really worse than you think; puffy eyes, panda eyes, scattered hair/hairnet/half-tied, half removed head scarf, drool on the side of the mouth/ stinky breath...lol. I'm only helping to burst the crazy ideals you have..with any luck she won't be as bad a that and you'll be happy with whatever you get. I guess an alternative to super high ideals are shitty low ones..so whatever the case you'll either be prepared or very relieved..lol

And then again, maybe not. But what then is the way out??

:- |

School is just random as in!! I kinda feel my life is just wasting away..lecture, ibrary, home, eat, facebook, sleep. As in wth kinda robot schedule is that?! Ok, I may be exaggerating a tiny bit but I'm just not in love with the system right now.

Sha, today I decided worry was off limits and therefore automatically fear and sadness too. I cannot kill myself because of tomorrow! So even on the darkest todays I can always manage to crack a smile and I think everyone should try it too. I hate people who are constantly screwfacing..I mean really! Life can't be that bad now, could it? The problem with me is that I wear my emotions on my face..like when I'm thinking...my face goes all thoughtful and I look worried. But on a good day, I could be walking down the road and smiling to myself. The worst is when I'm having a very passionate discussion..lol. I never used to be aware of this and it was my friends that made me notice. So with awareness comes control and I have mastered the poker face look for when I want to hide emotions.

It's funny how you can read some peoples mind through their faces and others manage to keep totally straight faces even though they are planning how to kill you, lather you with barbeque sauce, roast you and eat you. I personally thing too much poker face is scary whereas animated faces are comical but endearing. But i dunno what other people think..is it better to let everyone know what you're thinking or keep everyone guessing..mystery vs openness, especially with the opposite sex and stuff.

Dewey!

New year, new blog, new focus, new better me.
2010's got to be good..im gonna make sure!

So this post is like the dew on this blog, hence Dewey. (Tied in with the whole sea, water thingy..lol..at least i think)

:-)

Life's one thing only: what you make it