I wrote this a while ago, and even the events that have occured in the time between then and now has just proven how true this is.
So I just realised how fickle relationships are, how temporary the modern definition of love is. This comes after hearing about the one million and one-th break-up. Marriage, relationships and friendships...none escape d wrath of fickle love. Has love always been this way or is it the evolution of our minds and our never ending search for freedom? To be free from love? Rules? God? Normalcy?
Such freedom has slowly given rise to anarchy. Where one man's I do really means 'I do-as far as I still have my freedom'. I am somehow also connected to this search for freedom, not to be bound by any restricting rules but at the same time I crave the stabilty and order?
In all of this, I am sure of only one thing....God's love is the only constant thing. Yet some still run from it. For me it is the one thing I can hold on to for stability in this ever-changing temporary world. The Bible says heaven and earth will pass away but His words will remain and He has said that he loves me....what more stability can a girl ask for while being given permission to be unabashedly me? :)
Monday 9 August 2010
Wednesday 4 August 2010
The Gift
I saw this once on someones facebook note and after reading, I literally brought out my pen and paper and wrote it all down..for me. But now I'm gonna write it out again for you:
Every woman has an insatiable need for relationship, one that can never be filled. It is an ache in her soul designed to drive her to God. She aches for intimacy, to be known, loved and chosen. It also explains her deepest fear- abandonment/rejection.
You have to have someplace to turn... For comfort, understanding. For the healing of brokeness. For love. To offer life, you must have life. And you can only get this from God.
We live in a great love story, set in the midst of war. The great and terrible clash between the kingdom of God and the kingdom of darkness continues. They are fighting for the human heart.
Jesus is the hero of this love story and we are his beloved. So the greatest gift you can give yourself is to develop a real relationship with Jesus Christ, where you are finding in God the life and love your soul desperately needs.
Friday 30 July 2010
Pray for your enemies...:s
The bible says pray for your enemies. Deep. It’s bad enough getting people to pray for their friends everyone is focused on the almighty ME. So when you eventually do, you feel “Right I’ve done a good thing” So, how much of a saint do you have to be to pray for our enemies.
A lot of churches have made a business out of praying against their enemies. Most of those prayers are like throwing grenade bombs at your enemies. I’ve participated in some of these church prayers thanks to mother and have always felt a tad bit uncomfortable chanting ‘die’ at the so-called witches, wizards and even cats :o
Some say in Africa it is very needed because of our background and how supposedly evil we are with all the bad beleh people wishing you evil. But a friend of mine from Kenya claims they have no such thing as witches in her country?? So maybe it’s not an African thing just a Nigerian thing....?
I know they say, the prayers are not targeted at actual people and they quote that “we do not wrestle against flesh and blood” but after praying these prayers, most are expecting to hear news of the death of one old aunty in the village or something.
I don’t have any strong views except that I feel uncomfortable praying for my enemies to die and would try to lean towards the praying for them ideal...even though it sounds absurd..
But as a Nigerian am I being stupidly naive? Is praying for your enemies reserved for the hillsong type western Christian who probably don’t even have enemies??
A lot of churches have made a business out of praying against their enemies. Most of those prayers are like throwing grenade bombs at your enemies. I’ve participated in some of these church prayers thanks to mother and have always felt a tad bit uncomfortable chanting ‘die’ at the so-called witches, wizards and even cats :o
Some say in Africa it is very needed because of our background and how supposedly evil we are with all the bad beleh people wishing you evil. But a friend of mine from Kenya claims they have no such thing as witches in her country?? So maybe it’s not an African thing just a Nigerian thing....?
I know they say, the prayers are not targeted at actual people and they quote that “we do not wrestle against flesh and blood” but after praying these prayers, most are expecting to hear news of the death of one old aunty in the village or something.
I don’t have any strong views except that I feel uncomfortable praying for my enemies to die and would try to lean towards the praying for them ideal...even though it sounds absurd..
But as a Nigerian am I being stupidly naive? Is praying for your enemies reserved for the hillsong type western Christian who probably don’t even have enemies??
Wednesday 28 July 2010
Jump!
So, I’ve been talking alot about vision and what not. It really cannot be overemphasized cuz it’s where it all begins and without seeing what you want first...well you simply can’t get it. Nyhoos, ok, you’ve seen it and whoop! You’re excited cuz all the ideas are pouring in and you literally feel shivers down your spine at the excitement of the sheer possibilities. Now, you actually have to get doing...ACTION...else you end up feeling a little like this...
“The worst thing is making the same mistakes over and over. What happens when you know where you want to go, like you can see it right there but you just-no matter how hard you seem to try you can’t seem to reach it. It's the kind of thing that makes you just want to bang your head over and over again on a brick wall and scream in frustration(I would not advise this) And in does seem like there’s a wall standing between you and your goals/dreams (explains the head-bashing feeling)”
Written in one of my moments of sheer frustration. See, if everyone in the world was classified by what they do most...so, Think-ers, Do-ers, Write-ers and Speak-ers. I would most definitely fall under thinkers. While each category has its apparent advantages, there are also limitations. I really wish I was more of a do-er. Some once told me vision without provision is frustration (forgive the tacky rhymes...maybe my sources r dodgy, but it gets the point across) ok, a bit off-point since we’re not talking about provision. But I can rephrase and say vision without action is frustration. Common sense, you might think...in fact everything I’ve written here could be regarded as simple plain common sense but maybe common sense isn’t so common anymore because I’ve always seemed to fall short at this same point. So, if you like this could be considered a pep-talk for me and any other person that this may apply to. But still we can, talk, think and write from now till thy kingdom come and if nothing is done then nothing changes. While talk and its partners are cheap like they say, actions are a tad bit more expensive. Mostly because it is held down by fear and I don’t think its fear that we are not capable but fear that others will think we are not doing absolutely rubbish.
But once again fear is simply False Evidence Appearing Real (forgive once more). It’s really all in the mind and if we can get over it we can just GET UP & GO! Or you know what even you are still scared shitless still get up and go despite the Fear...I think that’s the only way. Quit the over thinking, and just jump. Metaphorically please don’t go and jump of the top of a sky scraper..Start with a one- storey as far as you’re moving you’ll eventually get there.
And heres a video for u to JUMP around to.Enjoy. x
“The worst thing is making the same mistakes over and over. What happens when you know where you want to go, like you can see it right there but you just-no matter how hard you seem to try you can’t seem to reach it. It's the kind of thing that makes you just want to bang your head over and over again on a brick wall and scream in frustration(I would not advise this) And in does seem like there’s a wall standing between you and your goals/dreams (explains the head-bashing feeling)”
Written in one of my moments of sheer frustration. See, if everyone in the world was classified by what they do most...so, Think-ers, Do-ers, Write-ers and Speak-ers. I would most definitely fall under thinkers. While each category has its apparent advantages, there are also limitations. I really wish I was more of a do-er. Some once told me vision without provision is frustration (forgive the tacky rhymes...maybe my sources r dodgy, but it gets the point across) ok, a bit off-point since we’re not talking about provision. But I can rephrase and say vision without action is frustration. Common sense, you might think...in fact everything I’ve written here could be regarded as simple plain common sense but maybe common sense isn’t so common anymore because I’ve always seemed to fall short at this same point. So, if you like this could be considered a pep-talk for me and any other person that this may apply to. But still we can, talk, think and write from now till thy kingdom come and if nothing is done then nothing changes. While talk and its partners are cheap like they say, actions are a tad bit more expensive. Mostly because it is held down by fear and I don’t think its fear that we are not capable but fear that others will think we are not doing absolutely rubbish.
But once again fear is simply False Evidence Appearing Real (forgive once more). It’s really all in the mind and if we can get over it we can just GET UP & GO! Or you know what even you are still scared shitless still get up and go despite the Fear...I think that’s the only way. Quit the over thinking, and just jump. Metaphorically please don’t go and jump of the top of a sky scraper..Start with a one- storey as far as you’re moving you’ll eventually get there.
And heres a video for u to JUMP around to.Enjoy. x
Friday 16 July 2010
Lets get uncomfortable..!
I spend a lot of my time reading people's blogs. Some fall under the bleh category but most are attention grabbing, either because of their inspiring/funny content, the beautifully and articulately written pieces, or just the obvious sheer fabulousity of their life. While this is a good way of passing time, it does a number of things to me
1. When you reading an inspiring blog of young, as in like my age mate kinda people, doing fantastic things like running a clothes line, or writing books..I just think "What the hell am I doing with my life?"
2. Reading stupidly articulate and well written blogs leaves numb...Like some of them are even too intelligent for my feeble mind(ok, not feeble but..) and I just wonder about my so called level of intelligence and writing ability.
3. The one who gladly document their fabulous lives, globe-trotting, have the coolest friends, job titles like 'Personal shopper' or 'Fashion designer living in Lagos'...You can understand why the green-eyed monster starts to rear it's head
So all in all, in a weird way reading blogs has a rather demoralizing effect on me. But dare I say its still in a positive way. If you never become aware of how much more you could be or be doing you just remain content in your small little box. However comfortable it is, that small box is dangerous. Knowing about these alternative lives just makes me very uncomfortable with where I am because I could be doing SO much more. I'm a strong believer in the fact that we create our own destinies. Yes God allows it and creates the opportunities but it is down to us, to take advantage of the opportunities when they come.
Some could argue that we ought to be content with whatever we have but I stubbornly disagree. Life is not offered to us on a platter of gold, we have to take what we want from it(see parable of talents in the Bible). So, if we were given, then sure we should be content and just be grateful but since its the other way (that's not to say that some things aren't given)...its up to us to choose how much we want.
East enders just came on and I'm losing the plot but I shall proceed. Lol. It's safe to assume that there are other people who have boring lives like me, who always seem to need encouragement and doubt their abilities...For life the life you've lived and whatever abilities you have, the people around you...Be grateful. But if you can see how far into the horizons, you'll know that there's more and you can't help but to want to cover the remaining distance. So, here's to uncontentment!!!(Is that a word?:s)
1. When you reading an inspiring blog of young, as in like my age mate kinda people, doing fantastic things like running a clothes line, or writing books..I just think "What the hell am I doing with my life?"
2. Reading stupidly articulate and well written blogs leaves numb...Like some of them are even too intelligent for my feeble mind(ok, not feeble but..) and I just wonder about my so called level of intelligence and writing ability.
3. The one who gladly document their fabulous lives, globe-trotting, have the coolest friends, job titles like 'Personal shopper' or 'Fashion designer living in Lagos'...You can understand why the green-eyed monster starts to rear it's head
So all in all, in a weird way reading blogs has a rather demoralizing effect on me. But dare I say its still in a positive way. If you never become aware of how much more you could be or be doing you just remain content in your small little box. However comfortable it is, that small box is dangerous. Knowing about these alternative lives just makes me very uncomfortable with where I am because I could be doing SO much more. I'm a strong believer in the fact that we create our own destinies. Yes God allows it and creates the opportunities but it is down to us, to take advantage of the opportunities when they come.
Some could argue that we ought to be content with whatever we have but I stubbornly disagree. Life is not offered to us on a platter of gold, we have to take what we want from it(see parable of talents in the Bible). So, if we were given, then sure we should be content and just be grateful but since its the other way (that's not to say that some things aren't given)...its up to us to choose how much we want.
East enders just came on and I'm losing the plot but I shall proceed. Lol. It's safe to assume that there are other people who have boring lives like me, who always seem to need encouragement and doubt their abilities...For life the life you've lived and whatever abilities you have, the people around you...Be grateful. But if you can see how far into the horizons, you'll know that there's more and you can't help but to want to cover the remaining distance. So, here's to uncontentment!!!(Is that a word?:s)
Monday 5 July 2010
Caught it!
So, I think I finally caught the vision for this blog!! So excited! Whoop! I'm so grateful to God, and I'm just going to take this slowly and see how this goes with very detailed planning and caution. I am dreaming BIG..That’s what you need to know for now. A bit scary to even think that BIG but that's what I've been talking about innit.."As far as you can see". I might have to open a totally new blog for it but we'll see. I just need to tread softly in the mean time. God help me.
On to other things, I’ve not been up to much lately apart from job hunting, so I've tuned to TV shows as my source of entertainment. One of my favourites is The city. I like to think of it as the grown up, sophisticated sister of The hills lol. It doesn't have that much drama and it’s all about the fashion and the fashion industry and it just made me wish I could live that life. sigh. The new season just started a while ago, I’m just going to chat a bit about my fav. character.
Whitney
Isn’t she so pretty? All fresh and girly.
I ♥ this babe. Love how she does her hair and the way she dresses. She’s also really nice, polite etc. but I think she’s also a bit of a pushover sometimes especially with her sharp mouthed and sometimes overbearing friend, Roxy, and boss, Kelly who’s really her mentor/big sis type thing. We all have our faults and I think I can slightly identify with this one. Despite this she always does what she thinks is the right thing and that’s admirable, I just wish she’d tell Roxy to shut up sometimes. But yeah, she won’t because she’s nice and they’re best friends. .bleh. Ooh but she did tell Olivia off once, she totally deserved it though. Erin is doing a lot working with Olivia, I would have done a Lucas on her a long time ago( note Lucas reference to Eastenders, another show on my radar.lol). Olivia is the snobby socialite, who’s fab too but to me it’s dampened by her attitude. And there’s Louis Roe, who’s British and totally cool who’s attempting to overtake Olivia’s job. Oh! The drama of it all. Lol. To some people, the show and Whitney may be a bit boring cause of the lack of excessive drama, but I like sanity especially as it’s supposed to be reality, or maybe I am just grown-up and sophisticated like the show...or boring. *Kanye shrug*
You can follow her on twitter @whitneyEVEport or buy some of her lovely clothes at whitneyeve.com or better still just watch the show and make your own opinion. :) (Please, MTV needs to pay me for this promo)
On to other things, I’ve not been up to much lately apart from job hunting, so I've tuned to TV shows as my source of entertainment. One of my favourites is The city. I like to think of it as the grown up, sophisticated sister of The hills lol. It doesn't have that much drama and it’s all about the fashion and the fashion industry and it just made me wish I could live that life. sigh. The new season just started a while ago, I’m just going to chat a bit about my fav. character.
Whitney
Isn’t she so pretty? All fresh and girly.
I ♥ this babe. Love how she does her hair and the way she dresses. She’s also really nice, polite etc. but I think she’s also a bit of a pushover sometimes especially with her sharp mouthed and sometimes overbearing friend, Roxy, and boss, Kelly who’s really her mentor/big sis type thing. We all have our faults and I think I can slightly identify with this one. Despite this she always does what she thinks is the right thing and that’s admirable, I just wish she’d tell Roxy to shut up sometimes. But yeah, she won’t because she’s nice and they’re best friends. .bleh. Ooh but she did tell Olivia off once, she totally deserved it though. Erin is doing a lot working with Olivia, I would have done a Lucas on her a long time ago( note Lucas reference to Eastenders, another show on my radar.lol). Olivia is the snobby socialite, who’s fab too but to me it’s dampened by her attitude. And there’s Louis Roe, who’s British and totally cool who’s attempting to overtake Olivia’s job. Oh! The drama of it all. Lol. To some people, the show and Whitney may be a bit boring cause of the lack of excessive drama, but I like sanity especially as it’s supposed to be reality, or maybe I am just grown-up and sophisticated like the show...or boring. *Kanye shrug*
You can follow her on twitter @whitneyEVEport or buy some of her lovely clothes at whitneyeve.com or better still just watch the show and make your own opinion. :) (Please, MTV needs to pay me for this promo)
Tuesday 29 June 2010
Life through rose tinted squeeky clear glasses and still seeing things rosy
So in fact, the sea is anything but sweet and sugary, it's actually salty like tears...like million billion salty teardrops. Not that I didn't know this tiny little fact...I did but I thought "wouldn't it be nicer if it was sweet?" People do this all the time..we know the cold hard facts, but we choose to gloss them over and focus instead on what we would like to be.
Now while this may be considered a rather "head in the clouds" thing to do, it's still optimistic. Excess optimism may lead to dissapointment and too little would just make our lives a depressing misery. So a healthy dose is needed( I don't know who does the measuring but ah well) This somehow still boils down to vision. Optimists SEE what they want to happen and obviously seeing it is the first step in making it happen. And then activists MAKE what they want happen.
But first things first,the seeing part. To some people choosing to believe that there is some sweetness in the salty sea is stupid. But I think optimism is pretty much hope..and faith. Hope and faith require strength. It took strength for Abraham to have faith and trust God when He promised him a son. It took strength for him to continue hoping for this..and the effect of a short time of weakness is evidenced in the birth of Ishmael. I'mnot trying to encourage delusions here but what I'm saying basically is that it takes strength to see things in life clearly for what they are, the bitter, the rough, the sad, the enraging, the humiliating and at the same time still be able to focus on the good and positive side of things. To have been beaten rough black and blue and still have hope that tommorow will be better.
It may be delusional but I think when the reflection of the sun hits the sea, they do look like shiny crystals gleaming happily. And to me there is something sweet about that...
Never stop dreaming,never stop believing and never stop hoping.These are the things that make life worth living. ( sounds like its straight outta high school musical or somethng. #cheesybuttrue(I hate when people twitterize things unneccesarily but this time I'm guilty! sarry!)
Now while this may be considered a rather "head in the clouds" thing to do, it's still optimistic. Excess optimism may lead to dissapointment and too little would just make our lives a depressing misery. So a healthy dose is needed( I don't know who does the measuring but ah well) This somehow still boils down to vision. Optimists SEE what they want to happen and obviously seeing it is the first step in making it happen. And then activists MAKE what they want happen.
But first things first,the seeing part. To some people choosing to believe that there is some sweetness in the salty sea is stupid. But I think optimism is pretty much hope..and faith. Hope and faith require strength. It took strength for Abraham to have faith and trust God when He promised him a son. It took strength for him to continue hoping for this..and the effect of a short time of weakness is evidenced in the birth of Ishmael. I'mnot trying to encourage delusions here but what I'm saying basically is that it takes strength to see things in life clearly for what they are, the bitter, the rough, the sad, the enraging, the humiliating and at the same time still be able to focus on the good and positive side of things. To have been beaten rough black and blue and still have hope that tommorow will be better.
It may be delusional but I think when the reflection of the sun hits the sea, they do look like shiny crystals gleaming happily. And to me there is something sweet about that...
Never stop dreaming,never stop believing and never stop hoping.These are the things that make life worth living. ( sounds like its straight outta high school musical or somethng. #cheesybuttrue(I hate when people twitterize things unneccesarily but this time I'm guilty! sarry!)
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